Why ???

Cant Sleep again

...

WHY will like that?

Today i must very tired 1 arhhh

why i cant sleep?

iszit waiting for someone ?

ya..im waiting for him

afternoon i tel myself

if haven received his msg i dont want to sleep

so now im waitting...

waitting..

waitting..

.

..

now 4.30am ler

also haven received his msg

i miss him so much

what can i do now ?

i got to try send good niitez for him

but...

he also din have reply me

i just try send only

haiz...

so disappointed

Today damn tired lorx..

from now on

start to clean our " small house "

wahhhhh...

so jialak~

we 4 brother and sister together help my dad mom to lacquer based paint

start from 4.30pm til night 8pm just finish 2 living room

OMGGG>

my house is so small half day just lacquer 2 living room nia

upstairs room , kitchen and downstairs room also haven lacquer

die le..

we must do until ki qiao

nitez we all tired til siao liao

me is the 1st early sleep

hahaha~

bad mood~

walao..

我的心脏又开始隐隐作痛了

怎么办？

我到底怎么了

我为什么会变这样的

我最近是不是没吃药阿？

什么事情都做不好

我真的无药可救了

还是死掉算了

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我...

其实...

真的...

好想离开这里

好好的让自己放轻松

不要再过一些没有意义的生活

我做人真的很失败

身边的朋友也一个一个的不理我了

就连好朋友也少联络了

难道我在你们心中真的是一个那么难相处的人吗？

我到底要怎样阿？

我有好多好多的烦恼

不知道应该找谁来听听我的烦恼

我真的不知道应该怎么做才好

死 又不能帮我解决

哭 也不能帮我的烦恼变少

我的心...

好痛好痛

通到好像有一支一支的刺

刺在我心脏

好痛苦哦

.....

我的头也开始的痛

药又吃完了

也不想再买药吃了

就让它这样的过

...

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..

...

....

痛苦的时候

没有人在我身边陪伴着我

也永远不会有人知道

就连好朋友也不会知道

烦恼的时候

也一样没有人来开解我

不开心的时候

还是一样没有人陪在我身边陪伴着我

寂寞的时候

好想找人陪不过还是没人肯陪我

我做人真的很没用

有天如果我真的想不开离开了这里

不知道我的朋友们会不会记得我

会不会来拜祭我

我想啊..

可能他们也应该忘记我是谁了吧

就把握当成一个永远的透明人

我永远都是他们心里的透明人而已

不存在也没关系存在也没关系

喜欢的时候就当朋友这样看待

不喜欢就把我踢到一边没人会注意到的地方

Boring Christmas~

Boring Christmas..

WHY..?

No more activity today

whole day at house

online..watch drama and more..

nothing to do..sienz..

but yesterday already celebrate christmas with my best friend le

where we going ??

hehe^^

we goin Straits Quay Mall

there is a new shopping mall

look like so beautiful and relax

all is christmas tree and sweetie candy

hmm.. my 1st feeling in this shopping is very quite and less more shop

the all shop is very " big "

AND

restaurant also is very " big "

so ...

i think this shopping is not good

" Straits Quay Mall "

" Sweetie candy "

" i saw my lovely icing cake "

Very beautiful

After that we goin to gurney for countdown

wah...gurney so much people

wanna find a easy parking also hard

so we parking at inside gurney car park

then waitting 12am for countdown christmas

YOHoooooo....

1st time at gurney countdown christmas

OMGGGG..

i never countdown christmas at gurney

Because gurney will see people argue with polis or other people

so sienz..

but i get 1 christmas present from my brother girl friend

hehe~

Also is my 1st time to get present ~

haha.. happy^^

So This year of christmas ..

the end..~